Sunday, September 26, 2010

You pick me up when I'm down.
You give me a hand when I'm sinking.
You never gave up on me no matter what.
You accept me who I am and love me with no restriction's.
You made me see the sunlight not only the dark.
You let me live life.
You let me see the world when wasn't all bad.
You made me take a chance on love.
Your my best friend and I love you so much
I don't know what I would do without you.

Monday, September 20, 2010



I feel so lost.....

Thursday, September 16, 2010

PARAMORE


SAW PARAMORE YESTERDAY! THEY ROCKED! HAYLEYWILLIAMS WAS SO FUNNY AND AMAZING!! ONE OF THE BEST CONCERTS EVERY! THX  2 MY 2 BIG SISTERS FOR TAKING ME LOVE YOU BOTH SO MUCH!




AWW LOOK HOW BEAUTIFUL HAYLEY WILLIAMS IS!




Monday, September 13, 2010

LIFE IS A BIG MYSTERY,
WE JUST GO ALONG FOR THE RIDE!

Tuesday, September 7, 2010

meetings suck!

I found myself sitting in a chair surrounded by teachers and my mom.
Have you ever had those dreams where you were having a nightmare but you were awake?
Well thats how i was feeling, not that it was a nightmare just felt like i was looking at it from outside the dream. not in the dream. Like almost like a two sided mirror. Me the reflection and them on the other side. I could hear them talking about me like i wasn't there. Oh no don't get me wrong my teachers weren't talking bad they were doing the opposite. I must have heard teachers say this a hundered times! Im dead serious!
"She has good grades in my class. All her assignments turned in on time."
"She is quiet and does all her work. She is one of my best (or great) student."
"She has been good on making all her work up." Well you get the picture.
I just learned to smile and nod gets them the reaction they want and i look sweet doing it and "quiet".
Why do we have to be labled all the time!~ Come on now!~
"Loud" or "Quiet"!
Why do we have to be either or? And if we are quiet so what?? Whats the big deal??
It's not like you can catch it or it's a horrible disease being "Quiet".
Why don't people make a big deal about being "Loud"?
Like "Quiet" is so much worse!
When people think of me the first word is"quiet!" argg soo annoying!


Anyways i can feel my mom not thinking im all those things my teachers said. I don't know why she thinks bad of me!? She is like i have an attutide probably only because she is annoying!
I feel like my mom just wants more for me like she isn't happy for what i am and the grades i get in school. Like she wants an excuse to be disappointed or something. I don't know. It's just that she doesn't get happy or pround like my teachers do when they talk about good things about me. Yeah she is smiling when they say good things but it doesn't feel like a real one.
One of the teachers were telling her my AIMS scores and i meet all the AIMS so i passed all of them but she didn't seem to care! It was a huge deal for me i was over the moon when i passed my last AIMS test. It was for math. I suck at math! But now I'm just happy for me! I did it for me and only me! Not her or my parents or teachers or anyone just for ME!


I learned a long time ago that the only person that matters in this life and the next is................YOU!
Do things for you, push yourself to do better. Not to make other people happy because in the end whos going to make you happy??
Is it worth wasn't your life on making other people happy?
You only live once!

Sunday, September 5, 2010

I'M SICK! YUCK! THERE GOES MY SUNDAY!

Friday, September 3, 2010



Look in my eyes..
your killing me, killing me
All i wanted was you
I tired to be someone else but nothing seemed to change....
I know, now that this is who i really am inside.
Finally found myself
Fighting for a chance
I know now this is who i really am
                                                
                                                 - 30 Seconds To Mars


I love 30 seconds to mars! They had the best concert ever!

Thursday, September 2, 2010

I hate the library!!!

See in the corner that use to be my friend. I talked to him a lot and now well............






The only good thing i got out of being in the horrible silence library was this was this poem....

This is the shirt i wore yesterday.